We just got back from an incredible weekend in Kaua'i.
We drove through breathtaking lusciousness. We chased waterfalls. We ate where George Clooney ate in The Descendants... And best of all, we got a private plane tour of the Garden Island. Our little 1964 Cessner flew us over the Waimea Canyon and along the majestic cathedral-like cliffs of the Na Pali. It showed us whales, the sites of Gilligan's Island and Jurassic Park, and even a glimpse of the mysterious Forbidden Island, Niihau, secluded and untouched, home to a tribe of Hawaiians that still live like their ancestors of centuries past.
It was all rather magical.
Like most of the exciting, slightly extravagant things that we do, the plane ride was Rob's idea. I'd actually been feeling a little uncomfortable about it. What are humble folk like us doing on a private plane? Who are we to splash out on something as dreamy as this?
But as I sat in that plane in total awe of the paradise sprawling beneath us, a little switch in me flipped. Hold on. Who are we NOT to do this?! Who are we NOT to live our lives in full and mind-blowing and spectacular ways??
By the time my feet met the ground again, I was an expanded version of myself. Not just because of what I'd seen and felt, but because I decided it was time to STOP PLAYING SMALL in life.
This is not about spending money recklessly and living beyond our means (the amazing plane ride was US$100 a head for flips sake!), it's about not tip-toeing around my ambitions, not shying away from success, not being sheepish about my very superficial, very sacred desires.
It reminded me of one of my favourite Marianne Williamson poems:
“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.
It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us.
We ask ourselves, 'Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous?' Actually, who are you not to be?...
Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you.
We are all meant to shine... We were born to make manifest the glory...that is within us. It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone.
And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same.
As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.”
So, how are you playing small in your life, love? What are you not doing or saying or chasing or unleashing, because you don't think you're _______ enough? Because you don't want to overstep, or you don't think it's your place?
And who are you serving by doing that?
Less politeness, more audacity, please.